poning palow!

January 7th, 2010

 

hari ni hidup den cem tak betol sket. tadi pegi cafe beli pau tak bawak duit. pegi kiosk nak topup tapi unsuccesful. tak ingat number plak. adoi jarang topup sendiri. last last.. sok jee lah.

 

pulang ke bilik subuh-subuh tadi tetiba layan lagu cemni plak.. pahtu bangun kul 11! hoho nak sambung working drawing. (walhal korang lagi lambat kan? haha)

 

lalalala la la
lagu nih? paham-paham jeee lah~ poning palow! (bak kate puad si budak klate) hati pun tak betol. dingin jee humm. resah dan gelisah. ogk.

 

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ku berjalan!

January 5th, 2010

heart kata, dia nak kata something:

 

ku berjalan dengan sayang.. dgn setia menunggu. rindu. dan hati yang tak terlepaskan..

ku tersekat..terjerat. dalam mimpi yang tidak berkesudahan.

harus berapa lama lagi? ku tanggung sendiri. kerana kini. keadaan membataskan.

masa semakin mengejar. lepaskan hati ini..atau aku kan terus begini?

 

sambil terkelip-klip 9 saat.

 

(dari jauh) “kudik….!!!!”

“yeppp?? oho jaapp!”

……ok! neollene wat keje please!! (lalu terus keluar dari lab com)

 

NOTE: kak dee kata: “ain kite setuju ngan status awak: to be secretive, is to be in risk..” oh! haha!

 

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remember

January 1st, 2010

 

no more nine…hey! it is ten already! time passes quickly..remember the time when you wrote 20 00 on your excercise book at school?? i’m @ standard 5 during that time.. now…..i’ll be writing 2010 as project’s date in my working drawing..

 

btw, happy new year! tomorrow, 010110 = we’ll be having studio trip to our project site @ pd!! haha takde tempat len! so laaaayan lah~ semoga tahun Satu Kosong merapatkan yang jauh.. =) impian. iman. dan kasih sayang (hubungan) ^^

 

oh! jangan lupa tahun baru islam juga ya!

 

NOTE: thank you wh for today! u made it! tho dalam keadaan tak stabil sket. (nanti orang bz kan?). pe pe pun, lake is so ‘interesting’.. haha. remember my heart can change in one second =)

 

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saya nak

December 29th, 2009

 

saya nak kahwin dengan art-chi-tech.

 

art.
chinese.
techno.
architect.

 

dan
tak perasan.

 

:D

 

kan?

 

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terima kasih

December 26th, 2009

 

Praise be to Allah..

 

Don’t want to talk much of it.. enough of the ’serious’ writing. ahaks. yess.. i have no more ‘teen’ right now. just wanna say thanks to all! for the lovely wishes!! wonderful nights..and surprise.

 

lalalala-beday

 

Received my ‘Xmas’ gift for the third times..Got 2 Santa’s stocking in the past few years.. now dapat hat plak!! aiyoo..had to wear it during dinner time! what’s next? complete all set! X)

 

snow-spray

 

Arrived home safely. but..owhh!! they got 2 bottle of snow spray!! shoot! the snow goes all over me.. haduih first time.. my sis punya keje. An** tuh memang mereng sket..hihi. she got me a cute pinky purple sketchbook!! hoho tanx mokcik! ;)

 

lalala-imran

 

The best thing today is to see my encemm imran dah becaa la dia! wohoo tough nye bdn diaa..gewam gewamm! hik

 

oh! my sis still keeps on asking me to join her paintball game..not enough people. ada sapa berminat? asap! hoho because for the moment, I just can say.. “nak wat keje la.. ;( sori next time okay!” dush! culture tak sketch lagi! w.drawing tak draw lagi! gambar tak edit lagi!!! byk!

 

btw, special thanx to Fi, Wh.. and madam yang postpone presentation research study!! and oh! yeah.. terima kasih kepada sesiapa yang tetap ingat dalam hati tho tak wish.. =)

 

Aduih saya dah besar la..tak boleh act seperti kanak-kanak lagi pasni! :D roomies, jgn bocor rahsia k..(ahak ahak) Malam ni saya balik!

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tak suka

December 23rd, 2009

 

Saya tak suka orang yang perasan.

 

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before

December 6th, 2009

 

suatu petang,
ayah pulang ke rumah..
lalu terus bergegas keluar dengan pakaian serba putih

 

“nak ke mana?”
“Budak yang eksiden tu dah meninggal..”
“..Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rajiuun”

 

Ku terus bayangkan..jika perempuan itu adalah salah seorang kelurga kita macam mana?
Apakah perasaan ibu bapa dan orang-orang tersayang ketika ini?

 

“Remember to appreciate everybody around you..” sementara masih ada. - Sazzy falak.

*She has just lost her cousin yesterday.

  Meninggalkan dan ditinggalkan.. melukis kenangan dalam hati, sampai mati.

 

I’m leaving to uia..studio life will be starting by tomorrow.. the toughest sem of my degree. wish me luck!

 

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1.21 guns

December 4th, 2009

 



love the album version better..

 

Green Day

 

An epic song.. love the melody and the lyric especially, since the first time i listened to it. Green Day.. always brings out something meaningful to the people.. and what does this lyric mean? definitely different interpretation.. let us think.

 

Do you know what’s worth fighting for?
When it’s not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You’re in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you’re at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn’t pass
Nothing’s ever built to last
You’re in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it’s time to live and let die
And you can’t get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You’re in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

 

btw, I still wonder why there is one…before 21 guns? heh..

 

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lumut

December 3rd, 2009

 

somewan said:

 

“we meet each other because of someone. as long as i am with u..someone will be here. between us. I can’t afford to make you both separated”.

 


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I’ve never mentioned this. thank you for always being by my side.. I wanted to go.. but i know you can’t let me though. how aa? heiiayaaa! waopuchetauuw aah!

 

it’s too late.

 

 

lumut

 

btw, lumut lah!!

 

NOTE: lately ku banyak mengarut la….haish. 4 days more to go before leaving home!! ughh layan ROCK Riot jumm!! guitar hero ke jom!!! geee

 

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give

December 2nd, 2009

 

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no more :D

 

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ku lari ke hutan

December 1st, 2009

 

kadang-kadang.. apabila hati terasa gundah, kita lari ke hutan.. belok ke pantai..

 

I did it this evening.. this is true.

 

tiba-tiba.. kenapa? ku juga tidak tahu.. yang pasti.. mungkin, ku takut akan kehilanganmu. sampai kadang-kadang..ku rasakan, ku tidak patut muncul dalam hidup kamu dan mereka. ku tidak pandai meluahkan rasa dengan kata-kata. walaupun rasa jealous.

 

berkaitan dengan itu, kadang-kadang.. deep inside me, luka itu terlalu dalam. until it’s hard for me to believe that i am strong enough, to be healed. ‘maybe’ i am not. yet. walaupun dengan muka dan perangai yang kamu lihat ‘macam ni’ setiap hari. tiada sedikit niat untuk berdendam, cuma jika kamu mempunyai hati sepertiku, kamu mungkin akan faham.

 

do you really love me? i am confused.

 

ajal maut itu di tangan Tuhan. bila ku sudah tiada lagi nanti. adakah kamu akan kenangkanku

 

Pesanku : blog ku adalah milikku. jika tidak tahu..tidak elok membuat spekulasi. yang pasti..ni tidak ada kena mengena tentang pak cik. (tak perlu sebut dah)

apa-apa pun, this does not mean that I am not ok.. i still cute as usual ;) (jgn marah :p)
ku tak sukakan spekulasi..rase naak jek make this post ‘password protected!’ duh!

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Ada yang hilang

December 1st, 2009

 

Untuk teman-teman dan mereka yang tabah.. semoga kita berfikir.. :)

 

“We ask God to forgive us for our evil thoughts and evil temper, but rarely, if ever ask Him to forgive us for our sadness.”

-R. W. Dale

 


“We enjoy warmth because we have been cold. We appreciate light because we have been in darkness. By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness.”

-David Weatherford

 

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time..and morning

December 1st, 2009

 

Woke up at 6 am..heard something noisy. looked at the big screen in front of me with my half-opened eyes. it was still turning on..oh. i slept at the hall.. washed my face 3 times..and then bismillah……

 

redza-minhat

 

10 minutes later. turned on my notebook.. his name suddenly breezed into my head. Redza Minhat! googling his profile but ended up reading his blog..kinda creative yet cynical, sarcastic and harsh writing..i have mentally caught up with the reading…until…my mum came and asked, “ad** (me) nak pegi umah a**** (sis) pukul berapa?” . i just realized what i am supposed to do this morning.. ouhh!!

 

*don’t read his blog if you are not clever enough. hehe btw, he’s cute..and intelligent. geeeee! who is he? malaysian writer, director and actor. (theatre)

 

NOTE: Kenapa kalo minum air breakfast kat rumah tak pernah habis ek? dari dulu..bukan tak sedap. membazir!

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Tentang seseorang

November 30th, 2009

 

Recall zaman Ada Apa Dengan Cinta..filem ini adalah ‘antara’ yang awal membuatku ‘lebih’ tertarik untuk mengenal puisi. tak belajar kat sekolah :)

 

 

Ku lari ke hutan
kemudian menyanyiku

Ku lari ke pantai
kemudian teriakku

Sepi..sepi dan sendiri aku benci
Ingin bingar aku mau di pasar

Bosan aku dengan penat
Enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh

Ada malaikat menyulam jaring labah-labah belang
di tembok keraton putih
Kenapa tidak kau goyangkan saja locengnya
biar terdera

Atau aku harus lari kehutan
Belok ke pantai?

Bosan aku dengan penat
Dan enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

 

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